Im back

Well, it truly has been a while. Almost two tears, in fact. So, first and foremost, hello again. It's nice to be writing again, even if it is just a blog.

Ill post something a with a little more meat to it next time. In other words, I'm tired as hell and don't want to type a whole lot. I kinda just wanted to say hi.

Yup, it's good to be back.

Taking out the Trash

Taking out the trash is a pretty necessary thing to do, whether you're speaking figuratively or literally. This week, I've been doing just that. It started with the soon to be ex wife.

Jade lives with me in my 1 bedroom apartment, where I sleep on the couch. (I sleep here for two reasons: she has a bed and I don't, and I'm up later than her on a daily basis.) I have generally tried to keep things civil between us (we fucking live together still), but the other day I snapped. I was the most vindictive son of a bitch I have ever been. It was kinda awesome. Anywho, that sparked a conversation about speeding along the divorce and yada yada yada. Even better, today (the 27th) is my 1 year anniversary of being a dumbass, so I'm going to celebrate! (Not with her though. Fuck that.) So there's that.

Next order of business: my apartment. This was a little bit more literal. My apartment had been dirty for a while. I spent most of this week cleaning everything, doing 17.00$ worth of laundry at the laundry mat (holy fucking expensive), and cleaning some more. It's amazing how keeping little shit in life clean makes things...just better. Life doesn't seem as cluttered.

Like I said, taking out the trash is pretty important. Choosing happy is easier when life's not full of trash. Get rid of that shit. Live a little. Choose happy.

Day 1

So, I am going to assume that anyone deciding to read this blog already knows me, in some shape or form. *insert introduction and rambling about me, yada yada yada*

Glad I got that out of the way. Anywho, Day 1. Day 1 of what? Day 1 of Choose Happy (credit: Jessica Davis). So, my sister-in-law, (probably going to skip the "inlaw" part from here on out, she's more family to me than a lot of my family, but more on that later) Jessica, started posting on Facebook a little while back about "choosing happy" and what-not. In a nutshell, you can be happy if you choose to be happy. That simple. I never really thought I had a lot of application of that thought process; up until recently, I had always just been happy out of habit.

For those who are unaware, I am married, getting a divorce. I am actually excited about the divorce. I'm not so happy bout the fact that I got married out of stupidity. I knew my current wife for 3ish months before we got married. Yes, I'm an idiot; I tend to learn things the hard way. Oh ya, and she still lives with me. Kinda makes me want to wash my mouth out with- nevermind. I won't go there, goddamn PRP. Anyways, there's "unhappiness #1."

Number two: I work in the maintenance field for the Air Force. It's definitely not a bad gig. I enjoy the work I do for the most part. The only problem is that I don't want to do this forever. My dream job: be a math teacher, and in the summer, do something else with my life. Being a skydiving instructor, for example. Instead of going to school to be a teacher, I'm stuck fixing shit for 16 hours a day, every other day, not to mention the fact that I'm only 2.5 years into my 6 year enlistment. Yay me!

Great Falls. Yes, that is a problem. You see, GF is about 65,000 people weak. I mean strong. A majority of those people are retirees from base, and the other majority are active duty base personnel. Put it together and you have nothing to do in this town except drink and play video games. There's not even a Cracker Barrel!! "So just go to the closest  big city. Problem solved!" Ha. Ha ha. GF is the "big city." The main road, 10th Ave S., is less jammed up during rush hour than I-75 is at 3 am. Okay, maybe not that bad, but you get my point.

I'm homesick-ish. Do I cry because I miss my family and friends back in Ohio? No, but I would definitely rather be there than here. I want to be able to bullshit around a fire with Crown n cokes with the family. Right now, I can't.

So, to sum it up- I hate where I am at in life..

Unfortunately, all of the aforementioned things are true. It's shitty. But dammit, I'm going to be happy. I'm going to enjoy each day, even if my "silver lining" is the fact that I didn't have to download my work truck because I got back at 16 hours. **Knock on wood** I'm Choosing Happy, and today is Day 1.

P.S. Ignore the timestamp- I am on nights for the next month or so.

PPS Happy Monday! (Although it's still Sunday for me until I go to bed and wake up.)